I'm Cursed

"If you asked me, how I'm doing, I'll tell you I'm doing just fine..... I'd lie and say that you're not on my mind."

I have a curse. I've dubbed it the 'If-you-think-about-it-it's-not-going-to-happen-curse'.

Am I the only one with this problem?
I must think too much.
About the future and possibilities, even just in daily life.
I fantasize.

It's an issue I really need to resolve.

But if I think about it, it's almost guaranteed to not happen.
Like, maybe he'll hold my hand.
Maybe he'll be in the library.
Or maybe I'll run into someone random.
Maybe I'll meet someone wonderful at the party.
Maybe we'll work out one day.... in the far, far future.
Maybe my favorite song will come on the radio.
--- or other random, stupid, day-dreamy situations.

And they'll never happen. ever.
Partly, because a lot of the times they're simply not sensible.
The rest of the time.... I'm cursed.

So some would say, "just don't think about it!"
If I could, I would.
SO much easier said than done.