flattered and a little freaked out

i. don't. know. you.

no, i'm not old enough to go to a bar with you.
yes, i am 'too busy' this weekend to go to dinner.
no, next weekend will not work either.
or the weekend after that, or any weekend really.
yes, you can give me your number,
but no, i am not going to call you.

thanks though

when i said i wanted a bit more of a dating life... i take it back. this is not what i bargained for.

when in doubt, don't wear toms

i bought TOMS almost a year ago
and am still in love with them.

except for the fact that they are not very water friendly

so if it's supposed to rain,
make sure you don't wear them

likewise, if there is ANY chance that a toilet might overflow at work
and you'll have to wade several feet through half an inch of water to shut off said toilet
please don't wear TOMS to work

stress less

boys, it's kind of cute when you're nervous.
maybe even flattering?

i've asked someone out before, so i know that it's terrifying.
it's difficult.
it's hard to think totally straight
and make all of the words come out in the right order

but if it makes you feel any better,
i think most girls understand that it's hard.
so when you pause at the wrong time to gather your thoughts
or stumble over your words a bit, it's not always a bad thing

someday i'll know the feeling

on monday for FHE, we watched two movies in the church gym.

the boys stole miscellaneous couches and chairs from around the church for us to sit on.
we watched 17 Miracles, and Despicable Me.
it was fun :)


my roommate, who is recently single (and therefore doesn't currently really care about what someone of the opposite gender thinks of her) because her man left on a mission, sat on the back row, and later informed me of what our engaged friend leaned over and said.


he said something along the lines of how great it was to be engaged, because you know what the person next to you thinks about you. whereas 80% of us on the front row (sitting pretty close to boy-girl-boy-girl), were definitely wondering what the person next to us was thinking.


myself included

please help me understand

what is it about guys that makes them seemingly instinctively want to snap the hair tie on a girls wrist?

flirting tactic? most likely.

but why inflict pain when you could just hold her hand?

do i mind that much?
no, i guess i don't really.

i just don't understand.

i won't complain

Maybe i'm becoming more desperate...

But I think the boys are becoming more attractive.
Especially the new ones moving in.

It's quite nice actually.

it's okay

it's okay to let things into god's hands.
he knows what he's doing. he's got a handle on it.
he has a plan for you.

because you can't see the end, it seems hard.
but there IS a plan.
you just need to blindly follow it.
and blindly seems like a negative word,  but that's how it's supposed to be.

and i promise things will work out for the best if you do your part.
in all aspects of your life.

well, i dyed my hair

it's not a drastic difference.

just a little darker brown, and a little red

the red was actually an accident

so it's a good thing i ended up liking it

and dying my hair gave me a really good excuse 

to go take some self portraits

because it's wonderful

Smile for a dime

Work is slow today.
So that means we mostly just talk.
to eachother.
to the people that are nice enough to come and say hi.

As we were just sitting and talking,
a scruffy looking man probably in his 40's
came up to our kiosk
and handed me a dime.

with that dime, he told me that i got the 'smile of the day award'
that my smile was the best he'd seen yet.

remember this from last week?
he just got added to the list of people i want to be like.


that dime is getting taped to my mirror when i get home.