Firmly on the ground

Dearest Cousin....

I just wanted to let you know, that I needed your latest post.
I too, could use a bit of a wake up call.

Sometimes I imagine that Mr. Right is just going to waltz into my life.
Incredibly handsome. Waiting to solve all my problems. Bringing me flowers.

It's my dream. All I think I want.

But, then I come back to earth.

He's not going to come into my life and sweep me off my feet.
(In fact if that happened, I think I would be a little weirded out.)

And, actually being in a relationship.... kind of scares me.
a lot.

Plus, we have to be friends first. That's kind of a rule I have.
None of this just coming out of the blue and scaring me like that.

But, I like the comment that happiness is not brought upon by a husband. or a boyfriend.
YOU choose to be happy. And then you get the boyfriend.... And then the husband.

So, I'm trying to keep my outlook on life a positive one.
despite being single. and not dating. and having computer problems. and being away from the wonderful people I claim as my family.

Life is good.

I need to try and be the best me. Someone that I would want to marry.
Then, maybe when future husband comes along, he'll want to marry me! ...that's the goal at least.
I'm going to work on things, one at a time. slowly but surely, to better myself.


And I'm going to do my best to keep my feet planted firmly on ground.