Growing up is a funny thing

I just remember being younger. And it was all I could do to hang on until my next birthday.
If I could just be 14. 16. 17. 18.
If I could just be old enough to go to dances. To date. To drive. To get a job. To be an adult.
If I could just make it to graduation. College.

THEN. Then, things will just get better.

And they did. To a point.

But I realized that growing up isn't always all it's fantasized to be.
Now, I have to pay for things. Things like school. gas. food. housing.
I have to earn money with a real job. And then be responsible with that money.
I have to manage my time.

I have to learn how to let people slip in and out of my life.

Thing is, I'm technically old enough to do all of those things, but I don't feel it.
I'm still very much a kid at heart.

And now, I have two friends getting married this summer.
My cousin just left on his mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
And I have another dear friend that I was able to talk to for the last time today for the next two years. He's going on a mission to the Czech Republic. (can you get much farther away than that?...)

I don't feel old enough for this!!

And another strange thought...... If I follow in my mom's footsteps, I could be married within those 2 years.
*shudder*

I think I'm just going to do my best to stay a kid at heart, and responsible on the outside, and love life. We'll go with the flow and see where life takes me.

Do I have another choice?