This is what I get

Tonight, I went swimming for the first time all summer.
Why haven't I gone before today?
Well, I don't really have a good reason. Just a bunch of stupid excuses, reasons I was depriving my self of real enjoyment.

Today, I needed to get my butt off of the couch, away from my computer and homework, and just go be active. So I figured that swimming was an appropriate action to take.

It was wonderful. So freeing and invigorating. And cool (it was super hot today...)
Not quite as freeing as swinging though. There are other people in the pool.

Speaking of other people in the pool..... It wasn't my fault.

I had made sure the path was clear of people and oncoming water polo balls.
I figured that, as I started my backstroke, people would see me and get out of the way.
Or at the very least, yell to alert me of oncoming traffic.
But no. He was not so courteous.
Next thing I know, my hand strokes down his calf. Not just a light tap, but a sweeping motion. Several inches worth of skin.

a.w.k.w.a.r.d.

All I can say, is that I'm glad we didn't make eye contact afterward.
(And I'm ashamed that I didn't even see if he was cute or not.)

Pay attention

Just a little video to test out your phsychie.

Growing up is a funny thing

I just remember being younger. And it was all I could do to hang on until my next birthday.
If I could just be 14. 16. 17. 18.
If I could just be old enough to go to dances. To date. To drive. To get a job. To be an adult.
If I could just make it to graduation. College.

THEN. Then, things will just get better.

And they did. To a point.

But I realized that growing up isn't always all it's fantasized to be.
Now, I have to pay for things. Things like school. gas. food. housing.
I have to earn money with a real job. And then be responsible with that money.
I have to manage my time.

I have to learn how to let people slip in and out of my life.

Thing is, I'm technically old enough to do all of those things, but I don't feel it.
I'm still very much a kid at heart.

And now, I have two friends getting married this summer.
My cousin just left on his mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
And I have another dear friend that I was able to talk to for the last time today for the next two years. He's going on a mission to the Czech Republic. (can you get much farther away than that?...)

I don't feel old enough for this!!

And another strange thought...... If I follow in my mom's footsteps, I could be married within those 2 years.
*shudder*

I think I'm just going to do my best to stay a kid at heart, and responsible on the outside, and love life. We'll go with the flow and see where life takes me.

Do I have another choice?

Warm nights and starry skies

Stargazing and firework watching.
Laying in the soft grass.

Can life get much better?

Maybe.
(A cute boy might help the picture)

But I must admit, that this is a VERY close second.

Just livin life and lovin it :)

starting off july the right way

I'm spending the weekend with my cousins. It's been a blast so far, and I know it's just gonna get better from here :)

Today we went to a BBQ, then just hung out, talked, and had fun.
I got to watch a great fireworks show, eat great food, and hang out with great people.

I got drenched unexpectedly... Because I'm the newcomer.

I was hitting myself in the head because I forgot Becky, my camera. There were too many fireworks a cute little children to NOT have a camera. ...maybe next year.

BUT, I got to watch and a small child, covered in brownie and frosting, rub his hands all over his face and into his hair. Who would take a regular shower when you can bathe in brownie? I mean, c'mon!